our happy little man

our happy little man
I've seen things you couldn't handle, I've been through things you couldn't endure, I am no one's victim I'M A SURVIVOR. you got something to say?! I don't THINK so!!!!You wouldn't last 5 minutes in my life!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

update taking one day at a time

First I want to apologize for not updating in a million years. I was sharing allot and then I received some not so nice messages saying all I do is complain so I got a little bummed. Not anymore I’m back and going to share in hopes it will help other moms feel it is ok to share their good and bad days we are living them.
We went to strykers feeding clinic he gained .8of an oz yeah b better than nothing wow big surprise we need a swallow study and she says strykers tonsils are pushing past the point of being ok they have gotten bigger in the last two weeks she suspects we will be having surgery within a few weeks. She suspects aspiration being the cause of his crazy fevers she said he could be getting a touch of aspiritive pneumonia and then his body fights it so we have never caught it. we are changing our feeding patterns and i told her ahead of time and the nutritionist I have no problem with getting fat into my son but I refuse to just add junk to his diet like ice cream and whip cream in his fruits i dont feel that is teaching him a positive way to eat in his future we are going to cut back to three pediasures from four.
Then the dr told me i was the most efficient mom she has seen in over two months with keeping his meals and snacks balanced, pacing him and the time in between that felt good. but I was sad that other parents don’t care or don’t have the time to go the extra mile to make sure there kids nutrition is the best. She also said I should change my major to speech and occupational therapy she would love to see people like me working with parents I think my plate is a little full but I did tell her as part of my masters I would love to do an internship. So on the medical front the fevers may be caused by aspirations we will be doing a swallow study. This also could be the cause of his chronic bronchitis. We will be doing a sleep study Friday. Hopefully a follow up mri of his brain soon. That way we have a base line. We will be doing surgery in the next month for tonsils and adenoids as they are way too big and causing swallowing and breathing difficulties .Besides this entire he is a happy little guy he started a new school he loves and is doing great. He is regaining his speech and vocabulary is growing daily which he lost when his brain herniated.
So today I was talking to my four year old niece we are raising and we were talking about rainbows we love them and her uncle my husband lets her take the hose and make rainbows when the sun is out she was telling me how wonderful it is and how God made the rainbows so pretty and perfect. so I asked do you think if the rainbow was missing a color it would be the same she said no it needs all the colors. So then I was thinking about the families dealing with their kids being different and how we are all different and unique. So my niece makiah and I talked about how like the colors of the rainbow are all different lengths sizes and colors so are people but we are all special and unique God made us all different because that’s how he wanted to see the world be a beautiful place. Then we talked about kids with cp down syndrome ect we talked about stryker and his chiari she calls it his broken brain and I told her we might want to just call it a brain owie because his brain isnt broken but it does hurt him. We know a little boy who has down syndrome and she said it would be sad if God didnt give jaxs to his mom and dad he is so happy and always smiling Im glad God gave us all differences cause it does make us happier. It would be boring it we were the same. It was neat to help her see at four that without all the colors in the rainbow just like without all our differences we wouldn't have beautiful rainbows or a colorful world. Then she went inside and told stryker you’re a special piece of Gods rainbow in this world with your brain owie cause I don’t have a brain owie so we are all special and make life happy.
I pray you all have a blessed week.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

answers more worries but God is good.

Tonight we are so thankfull that God guided us to Dr webhy she is great so we got allot of questions answered and allot of bad news but it is news and we know God is in control and he is fufilling his plan for stryker. Strykers brain is very tight in the back he does have teethered spinal cord and scoliosis also the dr confirmed all his specch delays are from chiari as well as his her words rage attacks and anger also his eating issues the testing showed his spiinal cord is not moving at all when his heart beats like it should it is just to tight as well as they think he has a neurogenic bladder problem and he has left sided weakness swallowing problems ect ect the short of it all is surgery sooner then later back and brain surgery same day then we will address the other issues so I asked God to let us bless others today and Im so thankfull we where able to help out a lady stuck intraffic who ran out of gas and we got to return a lost pure at the hospital thru all of this I hope God continues to strengthen our faith and let us be an encouragement and blessing to others this world is so me oreintated I dont want to get caught up in that I always want to rember that we should treat others extra nice because we are all fighting some kind of battle. As we take thia journey I want to use each and every part of this experience to help others see what an amazing God we have and in every thing he blesses us.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

some times it is the small things that matter the most.

The last two weeks have been hard as time goes on and the realization that Strykers future may not be what we had hoped we also know Gods plan is truley perfect. Tysons Aunt Rhonda sent this verse to us and it is so true Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in christ. 1st Thessalonians 5:18.  We should always give thanks no matter what is going on God is always with his and it is his plan we may not understand it but he could be using us and our lifes trials to show a non beliver how awsome faith in God is and how we can always smile because God will never leave us. Today I'm so thankfull for Stryker I just want to slow down and enjoy my life I dont want to be in such a rat race that life just becomes living and nothing more I want to experiecnce every day joyfully. We have figured out that during the afternon we may not be able to go have picnics any longer and we may have to slow our little guy down more but we can have a breakfast picnic and there a whole lot funner any way the park is less crowded and Stryker has the whole place to himself. So we have just had to learn to enjoy things a little bit diffrently. But we are very thankfull for all God is doing in our lifes and we pray we can have open eyes to see Gods path and an open mind and heart to listen and recive all God has to give us.